Cure or Disease
Hi friends! First off, I just had to share with y'all a photo of my lovely team whom I love so dearly!
It's been a while since I have posted.I guess 51 hour work weeks and getting engaged preoccupies a person a bit. Yes, if you haven't heard yet, my sweet boy and I are now engaged after four years of dating. Is there honestly a better place to get engaged than a hill overlooking Mount Moran? I think not.
The past four weeks have been very hard on me in numerous ways, some of which I probably should not complain about openly on a blog, let alone complain about at all. In general, I will just offer this statement. Relationships are hard, and interacting with people daily is hard. Rather than elaborate, I'll just share with you what God has revealed to me lately through many conversations.
I believe in this world, there are two kinds of people:
1. Life stealers
2. Life givers
As I have passed through the past two weeks especially, I have seen so many downcast faces everywhere in the park. This is the week of the year that employees are dead tired. After all, the hotel has been at 100% occupancy for the past four days. The bottom line is that it has been a busy, busy week. And as I have interacted with individuals, I have noticed myself feeling different after each conversation. I either walk away encouraged, feeling more alive than before, or I walk away feeling drained.
Think about it. We all have that one friend, one coworker, one family member. The one that walks up to you and wants to tell you about everything that they hate in the world. When they walk into the room, everyone cringes. When they walk out of the room, we breathe a sigh of relief.
And I hope we also all have that one friend that we desperately look forward to seeing. The one that encourages us, laughs with us and makes us laugh. The one that has something positive to say about everyone and every situation, yet has appropriate timing with all that they say. The one whose conversations give us strength in our busy and taxing weeks.
I came here to the park this summer because I knew that there would be people here desperate for life- real life. So many individuals are hurting in this park. I hear the complaints daily in the gift shop. Heck, I hear people's life stories some days. Customers, employees... There are so many lost people. SO many broken people. But I never expected to feel so drained of life. And when you feel drained, it's pretty contagious.
As I interacted with customers and employees the past few days, I found myself wanting to go back and apologize to some after they walked away. When reflecting on my conversations, I realized that at times I ONLY complained about how rude customers were, how little sleep I got, or how bad the meal was at lunch. (Sorry, employee cafeteria. The meal was great, and you guys are awesome- I just hate meatloaf.)
And all day today, I have been reminding myself that as a follower of Christ, I am to be a life GIVER. I am to stand out in the crowd as someone who isjoyful in all circumstances. It reminds me of one of my favorite passages in Philippians.
Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life- in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing.
I am to GIVE life. As I said in my last post, I have a Savior who breathes life into my dry bones every single morning. I have a SAVIOR. Why in the world should I complain about meatloaf?
You will walk among the life suckers every single day. Even some Christians just simply have the life-draining personalities. And this is something that I slip into so easily. I have to remind myself daily to give life. I remember that the struggles of the people around me are real. They are deep and painful, and keeping life to myself is the most selfish thing I can do. Even more so, stealing life from other people by constantly being a complaining life-sucker is just not okay.
It's funny how Coldplay song lyrics somehow work their way into my life in various ways. My tagline bio for everything social media related- Instagram, Twitter, Pinterest- is one line from the song "Clocks" by Coldplay. I am not even sure if the band meant for this line to mean what I get from it, but I sing it over and over and over in my head as a reminder of who I am and who I am supposed to be.
"Am I part of the cure, or am I part of the disease?"
Grace and peace,