An Epiphany at Sunset
Earlier this week, I stood on the edge of the rim watching the colors of day fade into night and cascade across the sky. Until that night, I never saw a bright and vivid red ever join the pallet of colors ensconced by the setting sun, but just because it had never been for me, there it was--a first. As if God had taken the smallest paint brush and created the strokes of red just atop the clouds.
I sat on a rock and watched the sky and clouds, illuminated by the natural spotlight from the sun, animate the transition of time from one part of day into the next. It was a view that amazed me to stillness, and in the quiet space, I listened for God's voice. I waited to for revelation and found only silence masked behind the voices that filled the background. The conversations of those who stood nearby watching and witnessing the magnificence of sunset blurred together, and I got lost in my thoughts.
One by one my thoughts drifted to the many experiences I've had since being here at the Canyon. I tried to sift through the experience to somehow beat God to the punch--to figure it all out--why I had come, what I was learning, how I was changing; but nothing seemed to fit. Moment by moment, the sun's light grew more and more faint, the vivid red blended to blue and the chill of the wind created an even greater chasm between me and the divine revelation I had so desperately sought. My thoughts began to overwhelm me as the setting sun disappeared over the horizon. Then, something happened. Not out of the beauty of sunset but in the dark of night, riding back home, I heard God's voice, "I'm bigger than that."
Those words cut me to the core and healed me in an instant. It was the reminder that God is bigger than anything I can even imagine--God's beauty is even more beautiful than that sunset. God's power is bigger than my problems and God's reach is more vast than the horizon. In the dark, when not even a street light can be seen, I was there with God and He spoke reminding me that I didn't need some magnificent moment to receive divine revelation but even in this moment, something as simple as the journey back to the dorm--God was there with me, and God was and is bigger than that.